This BL Novel Is Ruined Now - Chapter 137

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Chapter 137

Translator: Yonnee

RP: Haebaragi_syk

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“I’m cursed.”

He recited this simple fact, but when Reina heard this, her expression went blank for a moment. Then, as one would expectedly react to someone cursed, she scowled.

However.

“Don’t say that.”

He weakly murmured back, “But it’s true,” yet Reina reached forward and held his arm tightly.

“All the people who told you’re cursed—bring them all to me. I’ll make sure they never say such a thing ever again.”

Gazing at the woman’s anxious face as she muttered with anger in her voice, Eli swallowed a bitter smile.

‘If I bring each and every single one of them in front of you, you won’t be able to handle it.’

But rather than pointing out this undeniable fact, he expressed a mild agreement to Reina’s words.

“Okay. I won’t say that again.”

This answer wasn’t good enough though.

For a moment, she pursed her lips into a line, then she let out a small sigh. Going up on her tiptoes, Reina covered Eli’s cheeks with both of her hands and looked straight into his eyes.

“That’s not the issue here. I don’t know where you heard such nonsense, but you’re not cursed.”

“……”

“You’re a very precious person to me. Don’t forget that, okay?”

Right. This was the reason why he kept getting greedier and greedier.

In her eyes, he was not a disgraceful mutant born amidst the pride of the black lions. As his world had only ever been full of acrid smoke, her voice would dissipate all of that toxicity and transform his surroundings into a fresh, verdant forest.

He wants her. He yearns to keep her by his side. He wishes she could be his woman.

However, Eli had only ever lived his life hinged on only his survival. He learned to speak less while watching other people’s every movement, every word, and even every breath for the sake of reading their intentions. So, how could he not know?

How could he not know for whom this woman’s heart beats…

“Laila, you’ve got it good—you have a younger brother like Eli. On the other hand, that guy Noah… haaaa.”

He was willing to act all cutesy, blocking the line of flies that were buzzing their way to her, all the while pretending that he hadn’t noticed their intentions.

But compared to biting down on a piece of sliced meat, it was much easier to read Reina’s true feelings.

“……”

The yearning he felt for her surged regardless. It could no longer be hidden.

So, he tried.

He tried even though he knew that he had no chance.

He made extensive efforts to absorb her preferences so that he may practice it in his daily life, and he made it so that he could answer Reina’s call at any given time.

Besides that, he trained hard without any rest. With the skills he had right now, or lack thereof, he knew that he couldn’t even protect himself well enough, let alone Reina.

Despite the absence of natural talent, against all odds, he pushed himself and overcame the limits that had once been placed on him. All this became possible because of Reina.

At the back of his mind, he had one vague expectation.

If he’d continue doing this, wouldn’t Reina look at him now instead of Ethan?

Yet, it proved to be a fatal illusion.

“Ethan… I don’t want it to be anyone else. You’re the only one who can do it, Ethan. And the only one I want for this is you.”

When he heard that Reina had woken up, the first thing he did was run straight to him. However, instead of being welcomed by a goddess’s radiant smile, he was faced with cruel reality.

There was a high chance that she had asked for this conversation to draw a clear line between them.

One eyebrow wrinkled with pain. Then, Reina looked up at him in surprise.

“What’s wrong? Are you in pain? Do you have a fever or something? Did you come into contact with any of the patients?”

“……”

What a wretched feeling. He never had anything to call his in this life, yet the first time he found one that he wanted with all of his being, he had to consider stepping down willingly and without a fight.

He looked down, meeting the woman’s clear eyes that were staring straight at him. Tens of thousands of words and sentences were lodged at his throat, unable to escape.

“……”

None of those ten thousand desires ever left through his lips. Instead, they were all kept suppressed, and the complete opposite was uttered.

“It’s nothing like that, Noona.”

House Jehardt had the characteristic of sharp, beastly instincts.

Right now, he did not need to be a lion. He needed to be a deer.

He needed to hang around her, lying in the wait. And, the moment the seat next to her were to be empty, he would pounce.

‘Don’t rush.’

Humans were fickle beings. Certainly and without a doubt, the relationship between Ethan and Reina would change one day in the future.

‘So, I will wait for the right time.’

Before starting the hunt, a beast’s essential skill was putting up an act.

Gently reaching up to hold the warm hands over his cheeks, Eli smiled sorrowfully.

“Noona, please don’t push me away. I won’t be greedy.”

As though he had no interest in his prey, as though he was not hungry, as though there was no such interest in him to hunt…

This was how he acted. Cool, nonchalant.

“I don’t want us to drift apart, Noona. I’m okay with just being friends. Please.”

It was an utterly bold-faced lie.

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“Noona, please don’t push me away. I won’t be greedy.”

Eli’s mournful voice from earlier this afternoon kept ringing in Reina’s ears. She was already expecting it, but Eli was looking at her as an ‘engagement target’.

“Haa… When did it start?”

It was after Eli had his growth that she slowly but surely noticed his unrequited love.

The sudden growth he had gone through was as a swordsman reaching the level of a sword master. It had been half a millennium since this kind of talent had appeared.

“Did he change starting then…”

Or, did he like her from the beginning, just that she didn’t notice it?

“Haa…”

No matter which one was the truth, her heart was heavy. There was nothing more grave than being unable to reciprocate another person’s feelings.

‘I mean, of course I never intended to just treat Eli like a younger brother, but…’

Nevertheless, after seeing Eli like this, there’s no way to stop herself from thinking about Luke and Letis as well.

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