I Grabbed the Tyrant’s Heart - Chapter 120
Most of the people I saw were like this: their love was fleeting and would change.
In addition, the devil’s knowledge has given me numerous cases where people’s minds change arbitrarily.
Empress Ylang, who loved her husband, suddenly changed overnight. King Morga II who was famous for loving his wife had an affair…….
Me and Euseniel were still not bound together, so if Euseniel changed her mind, our relationship would fall apart. At that time, all I can do is bind her by force.
“Euseniel.”
Don’t go.
Euseniel, who is more selfish than me.
“Huh?”
“Is there someone you hid there?”
I asked jokingly.
“Did you not come because you don’t want to see me?”
Euseniel only blinked and didn’t answer. I was scared for a moment.
“Euseniel?”
“Oohh, Tess.”
Euseniel burst out laughing and gently stroked my cheek.
“Have I ever lied?”
“No.”
“Then you have the answer.”
I see. Then you will come back safely and marry me.
“No, you lied.”
“When?”
“When we were little, you hated me but you said you didn’t.”
Come to think of it, Euseniel has never said she liked me first. I was always the one holding onto her, then and now.
“Since I am the Crown Prince, you have no choice but to be my friend, and pretend not to hate me.”
I wanted to bite my tongue at the rude tone even while saying it, but Euseniel only answered calmly.
“I really didn’t hate you.”
“Really?”
“Yes.”
“Lies.”
“It’s not a lie.”
I couldn’t believe her, so I asked her again and again. Euseniel was still calm.
I wish I could see your heart. Only then will I be sure of your feelings, then I won’t have to tremble in fear like this.
No, if I can’t see Euseniel’s feelings, then I shouldn’t. Even if she hates me, there’s no justification.
Even if Euseniel hates me, I can even believe that she loves me.
“Then Tess, are you so bothered by people who don’t like you? Being condescending just because you’re the Crown Prince?”
“… no.”
In the end, Euseniel brought up a question I couldn’t refute, and I was both relieved and in denial.
Euseniel doesn’t hate me and I knew that too, so I have been holding onto her endlessly. So our relationship is never one-sided.
As I lay down on Euseniel’s thigh, she stroked my hair. I closed my eyes at the nice feeling.
“You know, Euseniel.”
“What is it, Tess?”
“You like your current mother, so the Duchess, too, right? But why do you really have to go see your mother from your previous life?”
“Won’t I look stupid?”
Euseniel smiled lightly, and I could see that she wasn’t smiling because she liked it.
“I’m sure I’m a dead person to my mother, so you must be wondering why I am doing this. If I gave up everything, I could be happy here.”
Her lower than usual voice was powerless, but I couldn’t bear to stop her. No, it was so extremely rare for Euseniel to tell a story about her that I couldn’t even breathe because of it.
“Where I lived, cheating was forbidden by law. Everyone takes it for granted to live a lifetime with the one person they love. Of course, I lived with those values.”
I suddenly felt very good.
It seems like Euseniel is vowing to live while only looking at me. However, I felt my heart sink at the story she spoke of next.
“But my father left my mother to meet another woman. I thought my parents would cherish and love each other forever, but they didn’t.”
“…….”
“Those who changed their minds may be happy, but those who were left behind became very distressed.”
Her tone was calm, but each word felt heavy.
“Betrayal of love, betrayal of trust, the resentment of my past life…….”
Euseniel kept silent for a moment.
Was this why she never had expectations for a person’s heart?
Because she knew that people’s hearts will change someday even if she couldn’t see their souls?
I was terrified. My heart would never change. But I was overcome with fear that if I had changed, Euseniel might abandon me.
I thought of Ethyl Bonart, who seemed to have given Euseniel no impression. If she wasn’t surprised by his change of heart, nor did she feel betrayed, doesn’t that mean she didn’t have expectations in the first place?
Or does that mean that she was ready to abandon anyone at any time?
“All I have left is my Mom’s love, Tess.”
“…….”
“I was the only one left for her.”
Euseniel added in a low voice, “Perhaps my mom and I were alive because we had each other.”.
I couldn’t dare to look at her face.
What if I get abandoned too?
“This may be a foolish obsession, Tess. My mom’s body is weak, so now she might be very sick, maybe…….”
Her voice, which was getting smaller and smaller, doesn’t sound like Euseniel’s. It gave goosebumps to me who didn’t have the ability to feel the cold.
“I know it’s stupid. But I can’t give up.”
“…….”
“So I want to go. I will just say one thing. That I’m living well, so Mom should live well too.”
Euseniel was so devoted to the people she chose, but relentless to those she didn’t.
If Euseniel says that she hates me…….
“I won’t change.”
I jumped up and grabbed her shoulder.
“I won’t change, Euseniel.”
So please don’t abandon me.
“I know, Tess.”
Euseniel narrowed her eyes and smiled while stroking my cheek.
“You will be waiting for me here.”
“Yes.”
“Then I’ll go back without any hesitation.”
She gently hugged me, and I was relieved by the warmth of her embrace.
Yes, as long as I can see Euseniel, I will not be abandoned. So I don’t have to be afraid.
“See you soon, Euseniel.”
Even though the windows were closed, the cool air blowing in reminded me of the time she left Alin.
Ah, as expected I hate this season too.
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