I Grabbed the Tyrant’s Heart - Chapter 119
“Ah, Tess. Stop biting.”
I didn’t want to be bitten anymore, so I pulled at his soft hair.
“But Euseniel, you look like you want to be bitten.”
“What does it look like?”
There was laughter at my grumbling.
“Why is it white, bouncy, and smooth?”
The hand that was still groping my behind, started to move to show me the meaning of the words he had just said.
He slipped over the smooth skin, repeatedly squeezing and releasing the bouncy behind, then squeezed it tightly, wanting to leave a red mark on the white flesh.
“And why is it lovely?”
There was another pain along with the breathless words.
I was worried about the reaction of the maid, who would see these marks, but instead I tightened my arms around Tess in a somewhat desperate gesture.
My vision started to get blurry, my mind turning white. Tess held me over and over again despite my exhaustion.
I lost consciousness repeatedly, and each time I came back, I hugged Tess tightly and rubbed my chest on him.
“Is it that good?”
“Ung. Yes, yes!”
An embarrassing moan came out of my mouth, but I couldn’t care less of it. I was only busy just trying to get closer and stronger to Tess’s body.
Tess, who used to go back before dawn out of worry of being caught, got up only after the light filled the bedroom. He stared at my messed up body, like he was savoring it.
His large hands gently stroked my hair, making my toes twitch at the tickling sensation.
“You like it?”
“In three days, I’m leaving.”
The hand that was stroking my hair hesitated for a moment, but continued to move.
Tess responded in a usual tone and stroked my hair for a while.
I love you.
I felt like I wouldn’t be able to leave this place once I uttered these words. I felt like I was going to be caught in the warmth that rode through my body. And I would be caught up in the feelings I felt for the first time in my life.
However, if I was asked if I can completely give up the goal I was going to dedicate this life to, the answer is I can’t.
“I just called you.”
“I love you.”
Tess whispered affectionately, brushing his lips against me as if he had noticed my heart. He began to get dressed at the sound of Laura’s knocking. I hadn’t even bothered to rush him.
“Miss, are you awake?”
“I’ll get going.”
With a kiss on the cheek, Tess teleported away. He reappeared again the day before I had to leave.
* * *
I called out the name of that special person into the air. My heart seemed to be able to calm a little with it.
However, that was just my misunderstanding. The vase that the chief attendant had replaced yesterday, broke with a loud noise.
I felt depressed even though we were together until just a while ago.
Ah, Euseniel. How cruel of Euseniel to leave me behind.
I heard the chief attendant coming to greet me.
I wanted to leave out the morning assembly, but unfortunately, my body moved on its own. I wanted to skip the morning assembly, but then Duke Hardland will go home and tell her everything.
Then, Euseniel will begin to worry.
If that would prevent her from leaving, I would be more than happy to do it. But I know it won’t. She will leave as she had planned and I will remain an unreliable person to her.
… Ah, I left my coat in Euseniel’s bedroom.
Euseniel doesn’t want our relationship to be found out, so I have been meticulously paying attention to it. I definitely have one screw loose today.
The chief attendant bowed as he entered the room. He greeted me, who was sitting on the bed. He looked surprised upon seeing the marks on my shoulder.
I couldn’t resist the sinking feeling of wanting to explode someone. But I didn’t want it to be the chief attendant, so I got up.
“You’re earlier than usual, what happened?”
“‘That person’ in the annex was caught trying to escape this morning.”
“Since they were caught that means they didn’t escape after all.”
“How far did they manage to escape?”
“They were caught trying to cross the wall.”
I thought it wouldn’t be bad to let them run away for a little while. But since they might be a nuisance later, it would be right to contain them.
“Monitor closely in the future.”
“Yes, Your Majesty.”
The chief attendant tried to attend to me after the talk was over, but I stopped him with a sudden question.
“Why did that person suddenly try to run away? They have been quiet.”
“They said they had to go see a friend.”
The chief attendant responded to my sudden call without panic, and I couldn’t help but laugh.
I kept laughing at that behavior, which was very similar to mine. Risking everything for what you want, even though you know what it will cost if you try to run away, it’s just the same.
“Add the guards. If you see anything unusual, report it right away.”
“Yes, Your Majesty.”
If you make a contract with the devil, that would be troubling. Or is it the devil’s trick to have me kill my flesh and blood with my own hands?
Neither of them was pleasant to me, so the laughter quickly died down.
The morning assembly was boring as usual. My head was filled with only one person. I didn’t know what kind of expression to make, so I couldn’t go to Euseniel, who had told me that she would leave in three days.
I was able to drag my feet there the day before she left.
Perhaps she knew I was coming, Euseniel was awake on the bed.
The texture of the soft carpet on the floor felt somehow sad. The first time I felt this, I felt like I had the whole world, but now the past seemed fleeting.
Please don’t go.
I wanted to say this to her right away, but I could open my mouth. You said you would marry me when you come back, you said you would stay by my side for the rest of my life, so I have to bear with it.
I’m afraid you’ll die. But the scariest thing to me is that you might change your mind.
My mother consistently saw me as a tool, but my father was different. Hatred and love were tangled and went back and forth over and over again.
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