The Queen Who Deserves To Be Tainted - Chapter 6.2
What she didn’t want to face was, in fact, because he might feel upset at seeing her rather than herself. So, she didn’t want to be more hated by that.
“…I have unnecessarily stood out in Your Majesty’s eyes.”
Elfreda honestly justified herself in a small voice.
“I didn’t want to incur Your Majesty’s wrath.”
Despite the fact that there was embarrassment in her statement, it was better than him having an unreasonable misunderstanding.
In the end, Elfreda lowered her eyelids to avoid his gaze.
Rather than contemplating love, it was an odd relationship where she had to think about not incurring hatred.
“That’s all. How dare I…”
Elfreda stopped herself from continuing and let out a dry laughter as if to say it was nonsense.
“How could I hate Your Majesty. It’s a shameless thing to do.”
At least, she didn’t want to be remembered by him as such a shameless woman. If there were only one wish, it would be that. He might think she’s shameless if he sees her.
Ejnar’s gaze felt piercing.
Since she still kept her eyes on her toes, she couldn’t decipher the meaning of his gaze. Or rather, she refrained from doing so. Surely, it wouldn’t be a kind gaze. Elfreda decided to continue acting like that. It seemed better not to see him.
A long silence flowed.
Elfreda wondered if there was something she said that might offend him. However, she didn’t feel right. No matter what she said, she couldn’t help but be a presence that offended him.
“Go back.”
The voice saying that did not sound resentful. Elfreda looked up with somewhat surprised eyes. She met his eyes, filled with an unknowable look. She was puzzled because no hostility was visible.
His gaze shook slightly.
Ah.
Only then did Elfreda realize that she had been with him for too long and quickly lowered her head. She walked past him with hesitant steps, and when his face was finally out of sight, Elfreda realized that her heart had been beating rapidly again.
Even after his face disappeared in front of her, the fact that his face, which had held her before, continued to float in her mind.
“Ah…”
Then, the tears that had been well-contained in front of him started to flow uncontrollably.
Something subtly, or rather unmistakably, was going wrong, and Elfreda felt anxious. Even though her vision was blurred, she kept walking without wiping her tears. She didn’t even know if she was stepping properly.
The state of her trembling lips was no longer an important issue. She just wanted to disappear from his sight for now, and this thought rushed her movements.
“Not that way…”
Before she could hear the unpleasant words, her consciousness abruptly shattered. Like a candle that had been flickering was extinguished.
Elfreda collapsed.
* * *
Elfreda opened her eyes with a feeling that her head was about to split. When she first woke up, she felt better than now, but somehow, she felt uneasy.
She groaned.
“Are you okay, Princess?”
Ilene’s face, soaked with concern, came into view. Elfreda opened her mouth with a remorseful voice.
“I should have listened to you.”
Ilene was right. She shouldn’t have gone out. If she hadn’t… things might not have ended like this. Maybe her body would be healthier, and she would have seen him when her heart was not burdened by the hatred she received here.
She felt unbearable for feeling so foolish.
“Until you fully recover, it’s His Majesty’s command not to leave here.”
“How did I get here?”
“His Majesty brought you here again.”
Again.
…He himself.
In the end, it happened, as he said. Elfreda murmured bitterly.
“Oh no… as promised.”
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