I Reincarnated As A Villainess, But Why Did I Become A Cat Butler Instead? - Chapter 300

Chapter 150.2

“To be honest, Dimitri, I resent you for letting such an insignificant emotion disrupt what was a rational and stable contract between us. Because of a fleeting feeling, you’re making things uncomfortable for me as well.”

“….”

“Isn’t it a foolish thing to do? Think about it carefully. Are you letting yourself be blinded by such a shallow emotion and risking doing something you’ll regret later? I know I would.”

“….”

“This will pass, Dimitri. A few months, maybe a little over a year if it lingers. Even a love that feels like you’d give up everything for it will eventually fade away once that time passes.”

“….”

“And when it’s over, all you’ll have left is the regret of why you wasted your time and effort on something so pointless, why you sacrificed so much. The more regret you feel, the more you’ll end up hating yourself.”

It was clear she was trying to push him away. She wanted to hurt him. However, all Dimitri saw was the fear and uncertainty in her eyes. The one who was truly getting hurt was her. Her eyes were gradually losing their light, dimming with every word.

Why? Why was she getting hurt by the very words she spoke?

It was because the person she was truly pushing away wasn’t Dimitri—it was herself.

To Dimitri, Rowaine seemed like someone who desperately wanted to believe in love more than anyone else—a love that was unwavering, steadfast, and beautiful. That was what she yearned for. That was why her pure heart, which fell into despair more than disappointment when faced with someone who abandoned that love, seemed almost sacred.

“Are you afraid of loving me, Rowaine?”

The lips that had been uttering such sharp words quivered. She couldn’t utter a single response.

“Do you know why you’re scared?”

“….”

“Because you love me.”

“Dimitri, I’ve told you, I don’t…”

“If there’s no love, then there’s nothing to fear.”

“….!”

“The fact that you’re afraid of it ending and anxious about regretting it means that love has already grown in your heart.”

Rowaine, who had been about to deny it, stopped when she saw the intensity in his eyes. The words of denial that had been on the tip of her tongue melted away under his unwavering gaze.

“I was afraid, too.”

Dimitri’s confession filled the silence between them.

“I’ve never trusted anyone before. I’ve never loved anyone, and I’ve never been loved.”

“….”

“But then you came along. You came to me without warning, and before I knew it, you seeped into my life.”

“….”

“You made me believe in love, became special to me, and made me fall in love with you. So, how can you turn away from me and run now?”

Rowaine’s eyes trembled.

“I didn’t confess to you lightly. I had to find the courage to do it.”

Then, he took her hand once more, firmly intertwining his fingers with hers. The warmth and strength of his grip made it impossible for her to pull away.

“Let yourself love me.”

It wasn’t a demand.

“If that’s what you want, it’s okay.”

Rowaine’s stubborn expression crumbled, giving way to sorrow.

Tears began to well up in her eyes.

And finally, with those tears, she let out her true feelings.

“I don’t know what love is. I’ve never seen or experienced a love that ended with, ‘and they lived happily ever after.’ That’s why…”

Tears streamed down her cheeks.

“I don’t have the confidence to do it right, and I don’t have the confidence to accept it either.”

She wanted to believe there were people who experienced genuine love, something different from what she had known. That’s why she tried to believe in Renée and Nigel’s love. But when she realized even that love wasn’t all it seemed, despair washed over her.

She was terrified that her own love would end up the same way.

Dimitri gently wiped away Rowaine’s tears, his hand still firmly wrapped around hers.

“Don’t worry, Rowaine.”

“How can you say that? How can you be so sure?”

Dimitri smiled as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.

“Because I’m your cat, and you’re my territory.”
[ T/N: I’M NOT CRYING, YOU ARE ૮ ( ˶╥ ︿ ╥ ) ა ]

“Huh…?”

“You won’t abandon your cat, and I won’t give up my territory. So, there’s no way we won’t be able to love each other properly, and there’s no chance our love will end.”

“That’s…”

Cats, being territorial animals, protect their domain with their lives. They feel at peace only within their territory and find comfort there. And Rowaine was someone who would protect her cat with all her heart. No matter what happened, she would never stop loving the one she had chosen to love.

To Rowaine, it was the clearest answer—more than any words could be.

The messy emotions and thoughts that had been tangled within her started to settle, and everything became clear.

Noticing the much more relaxed expression on Rowaine’s face, Dimitri smiled softly.

“Of course, we can’t just simplify our feelings to a cat-and-territory relationship, but let’s start from there, Rowaine. Let’s not try to define everything all at once. We’re both inexperienced and a bit clumsy when it comes to this.”

As he gently pulled her into his arms, she didn’t resist and leaned her cheek against his chest.

“Let’s take our time and learn together. What love truly is.”