I Grabbed the Tyrant’s Heart - Chapter 148

“Tess.”

“Ung…?”

“Do you love me?”

“Ung.”

The answer was quick and overflowing with strength.

“In that case, tell me why you avoided me.”

“Euseniel.”

“You have nothing going on with Louise Hitty, right? Tell me why you ran away from me even before rumors about that woman spread.”

Tess didn’t answer. With a more sullen expression than before the devil story, he lowered his head.

“If you have nothing to say, I’ll leave.”

This time, I forcefully pushed Tess’s hand aside. He didn’t dare to grab it, and his arm moved awkwardly in the air.

“If you don’t speak, I’ll go. Don’t ever think about seeing me again.”

The door didn’t open. I exerted force but it didn’t budge so I guess Tess seemed to have done something.

As I stepped back and glanced at Tess, he seemed relieved, which seemed to prove that point.

Bang!

Lifting my leg, I kicked it, and one side of the door fell off with the latch.

“Take care.”

I said it as if nothing had happened, but deep down, I was fiercely contemplating what to do if Tess really got fed up with me for a moment.

Please, give me an excuse. I’ll believe anything, just don’t say your love for me has cooled off.

“I, I’ll tell you!”

His cracked voice was trembling.

“So, Euseniel,”

“…”

“Please.”

In a plea that seemed to have barely pushed away from the edge of the cliff, I turned around.

The bandages were dyed red again, showing how tightly he clenched his fist.

I didn’t want to corner you, Tess, but I’m in the same situation. Even if it’s a coincidence, you did the one thing I hate the most.

You should take responsibility for breaking my past prejudices and making me love someone, and that someone is you.

I didn’t move from the door, and Tess pointed to the door with trembling fingers. Then, with a low and heavy sound, the door returned to its original state.

“I.”

Tess tightly closed his eyes.

“I can see souls.”

I pondered for a moment to understand the meaning of the words that came out between the red lips.

“People… have soul plates. Here, there’s a square plate centered around the heart, each with a unique color. And the color changes depending on the emotions.”

“Really? Then, did you hang onto me knowing that I find you annoying?”

“Because I couldn’t see it.”

It rang as if someone had hit my head hard with a sword sheath. I wanted to cover that mouth right away, but my feet were frozen. In the meantime, the confirmation kill came.

“I couldn’t see your soul, Euseniel.”

Only now did I begin to understand Tess’s words and actions from my childhood.

– Because my eyes don’t hurt when I look at you.

If the color of the soul changes depending on the emotions a person has, it would be diverse. Unlike me, who is invisible.

“So… there was a reason.”

I thought he liked me purely and followed me blindly, but it wasn’t.

“Now, can you see my soul?”

Tess, still closing his eyes, began to tremble like a willow.

“Now that you can see my soul, am I no different from others?”

“No!”

“You shouldn’t have turned your back to me, Tessvalun!”

Tears welled up with a surge of anger, blurring my vision. Despite still loving Tess and feeling sorry towards him, the uneasiness and sadness I felt were unstoppable.

“I….”

Tess, who had collapsed, began to crawl.

“Everything was my fault, Euseniel.”

He turned white.

“It’s my fault.”

The bandages, soaked in blood as if they had originally been red, were painful to see, but I couldn’t catch my breath to consider even this.

“Euseniel, even if you hate me, please don’t leave.”

“You claimed you can see my soul now. I’m not the only one anymore. I’m like common pebbles scattered around. So is there any reason it has to be me?”

“Euseniel.”

“If you can’t see the soul again, you’ll run away again. No?”

“Eu… Euseniel.”

The pale petals of his lips trembled sweetly, and Tess, as if denying that, shook his head frantically.

“You were my savior and my hope. But you changed one day. I know, I shouldn’t have turned away back there.”

“Then find someone else. It doesn’t have to be me. Like Louise-”

“No! That was a mistake, I confused her soul with someone else’s.”

“Do we perhaps have the same soul?”

“Euseniel, many people have dirty souls. So tainted that their original colors can’t be seen. Some are even covered in a disgusting liquid.”

Tess shouted in agony.

“I thought that woman was Count Belverd. Her soul was filled with desire for power and hypocrisy, just like that man. Euseniel, there’s only you for me.”

The hand that pulled at my dress tightened, it seemed to be pleading for me to believe in his innocence.

“Nobody else comes to mind. You fill me completely, without room for me to think about anyone else.”

The dark hair and eyes that he changed because he wanted to be loved by me, stood out in my heart.

“Even if I know that you really hate me now, even if I can see your soul…”

Like a dying breath, the pitiful creature confessed its sincerity.

“I can’t be without you, Euseniel.”

Despite the growing sadness and the spreading stains on my dress, I remained silent.

You are truly like me, Tess.

I loved you because you were blind to me, and you loved me because you couldn’t see my soul.

We were everything to each other.

You made a pact with the devil for me, were abandoned from everyone, and I chose to come back to this world for you.

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