I Grabbed the Tyrant’s Heart - Chapter 117
That may be the difference between Tess and the others. All the people who said they liked me, including Ethyl, didn’t cross the line I kept. The same is true of Weathering.
Only Tess. He kept crossing the line till it exhausted me, and in the end I lost.
Tess snorted, but didn’t refute it.
The season was changing into autumn, the green leaves were colored in slightly different colors. A cool breeze brushed my nose.
The library was quiet as always. I didn’t run into anyone until the restricted books area, except for one librarian who passed by. I let go of Tess’ hand that was entwined in mine.
I approached the place where I usually sit, there was a sound of him following me. Tess was still standing, not sitting with me.
“So what are you going to tell me? That Euseniel thought you liked me too?”
I bit my lips when he asked that question without giving me a moment to catch my breath.
I spoke out to my childhood friend, who had widened his eyes, before he got even more delighted.
“I’m going on a journey, Tess.”
As he remembered something, his stern face contorted.
“That map! It’s because of that map!”
Tess fumed with anger as if he was going to run into Hardland immediately and tear the map apart.
“I didn’t want you to leave!”
He calmed down as I held his hand, but only for a very short moment.
“I’m coming with you. Let’s go together, Euseniel.”
“You can’t come with me, Tess.”
His question was tinted with sarcasm.
“Are you going to see a magic storm? Or, are you going to move between dimensions?”
As I didn’t answer, Tess’ lower lip was crushed with his straight teeth. When I grabbed his hand and dragged him, he was dragged helplessly, contrary to his violent reaction. When I pulled out a chair, he sat down obediently.
Seeing his red eyes broke my heart, and his tightly clenched lips turned white because blood couldn’t flow to them.
“Listen to me for a moment. This is only for you.”
“It’s my secret that I don’t even tell my parents, but I’m only telling you.”
I gently rubbed his lips with my index finger, and the white teeth let go of the lips.
I have to speak out, but despite practicing for this moment several times, I just couldn’t speak the words out easily.
My hand holding Tess’ hand trembled visibly, but he did not point it out. Thanks to that, I was able to take a few deep breaths and calmed myself down.
“I remember my past life.”
I was able to continue talking looking at the black eyes staying still without any movement.
“That’s why I was called a strange child. I lived to adulthood in my previous life, so I had an adult mental state from the time I was born.”
“The reason I’ve been doing research all this time is to go see my mother who gave birth to me in my previous life.”
However, how can I convey that he is also important and that my current life is also important?
Since this is my second life, it would be good if I could organize my feelings well and convey my condition properly, but unfortunately it was difficult.
“Just because I miss my mother from my previous life doesn’t mean my current life isn’t important. It’s very precious. That’s why I will come back.”
“If it is possible for me to get to the place I want, I can come back here at the right time. But I can’t guarantee it, and it might take years.”
Our grasped hand was still connected.
“Wait for me.”
The blind spot in my plan was that my assumptions could be wrong. Even if I succeed in crossing over to that world, I may not be able to return.
But I can only tell Tess this.
“I will surely come back.”
This is a greed that only Euseniel Hardland can put on Tessvalun Neussville.
“Let’s live together when I come back.”
“Let’s get married.”
I said, looking straight into the pitch-black eyes with no light at all.
“Let’s wake up in the morning looking at each other, savor each other’s smell, and share the same space.”
“Let’s live like that, us.”
Sometimes I used to think that Tess and I were very much alike.
It’s different in how I can’t express it and Tess can’t stand not expressing it, but those are the same in a way. It’s annoying, yet comfortable.
Even if I don’t open up my heart, Tess will always be there waiting for me and always pulling the hesitant me back.
That is an immutable truth.
So, even if it might take years or decades, I can easily ask Tess to wait.
As expected, Tess’ answer was that he would wait.
“Take my heart.”
Instead, he troubled me in a different way.
Tess held onto my clasped hand that I was about to let go of, and he twisted his lips in an unusual way.
“Nothing will happen. You will come back to me safely. So, can’t you take it with you?”
“But Tess, maybe-”
“-There’s no chance, Euseniel.”
The worst I assumed was ‘death’, Tess must have sensed my thoughts. His tone was as firm as ever, and the answer he demanded of me was clear.
“… yes. I promise.”
As I answered slowly, with our fingers crossed, a blatant relief came to his handsome face. He hugged me and sat me on his thigh.
“When are you going?”
“Now that I’ve told you, I will be leaving this week. I’ll give you a message before I leave.”
Honestly, I decided to put aside the words when I thought he would stop me from going.
Tess was more mature than I expected.
Whispering so lowly that it was barely heard, I buried my lips in his neck and stayed silent for a while.
On that day, the Eastern Tower, which was being rebuilt, collapsed again, and Father, who had returned home, had to go to the palace again. Regardless of the situation, Tess visited my room with a carefree face.
As always, Tess, dressed in rough clothes and barefoot, rushed at me without hesitation. He behaved persistently and roughly, unlike his quiet behavior during the day.
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