Refusing Your Ex-Husband’s Obsession: A Guide - Chapter 192

Chapter 192

Translator: Yonnee

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“Yes, I shouldn’t have been greedy from the start.”

Then his wife wouldn’t have woken up in a different body in the empire, and wouldn’t have suffered because of the past he caused.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry for loving you…”

He apologized endlessly while applying the ointment. Even after dressing her in a loose nightgown, he couldn’t stop his tears. He felt like he was going mad with self-loathing. Yet, he couldn’t let go of her, leading to a momentary extreme thought.

“Should I cut it off?”

If he cut off his hands and legs, he wouldn’t be able to harm Irene.

Or should he just cut off his neck and die?

Wouldn’t it be best for her if he didn’t exist?

Overwhelmed by the impulse, he raised his hand to his neck. Just then, Irene muttered something. It was a very faint voice, almost inaudible to an ordinary person, but he heard every word.

Like he had done in the past, he crushed ice with his mouth and gently parted her swollen lips to place it inside.

“Mmh…”

The moment the ice entered her mouth, Irene mumbled something, smiling with her eyes closed.

Seeing her like this, Ciel felt his heart racing uncontrollably. Pressing his hand over his rampant heart, he continued to crush ice and gently feed it to her, silently, until she no longer wished for it.

Sitting at the edge of the bed like a statue, he gently stroked her small hand. Then he repeated the words she had murmured a moment ago.

“…You only ever call me ‘Honey’ whenever you’ve lost your mind, you know.”

It seemed neither of them had been able to express their true feelings.

* * *

How long had she been asleep? Forcing her swollen eyes open, she saw Lacie’s face. Filled with worry, Lacie looked down at her and then cried out in surprise.

“Lady! You’re conscious now!”

Then, there was the sound of someone entering, followed by Aiden’s voice.

“Lady Closch!”

Both rushed in, their worried eyes checking on her condition.

“You have no idea how worried we were when you wouldn’t wake up…”

“Lady, are you thirsty?” Lacie inquired.

I just nodded slightly in response.

“Here, take my hand and sit up. I’ll put a pillow behind your back.”

With her assistance, I sat up against the bed’s headboard and drank the water offered. I drank two glasses silently and then sighed deeply.

“Phew… I think I’ll survive.”

I was surprised at the sound of my own voice.

“…Your throat seems quite sore. Wouldn’t it be better to get some medicine, Young Duke?”

“Yes… I’ll call the personal physician right away.”

Aiden immediately rang a silver bell, and soon Luman arrived.

“Excuse me.”

“Rouman, call the physician.”

“Yes, Young Duke. Should I prepare some refreshments as well?”

“Yes, please do that.”

Following Aiden’s instructions, Rouman quickly left the room. I looked around the guest room where I had stayed before and spoke up.

“…Where is Ciel?”

He had shown signs of an impending rampage. Thinking back, it had been quite a while since I had given him any guiding.

He must have foolishly and stubbornly resisted. Honestly, I felt guilty. Perhaps my anger in the past had prevented him from speaking up.

I tended to get lost in the past when I was with him. The more he tried to be good to me now, the more the old wounds he had inflicted hurt.

Aiden hesitated before answering my question.

“He was summoned to the Imperial Palace.”

“Oh, is it about that task His Highness the Crown Prince has ordered?”

“Yeah, it’s exactly that. A big decree was issued while you were asleep. The palace will actively search for Espers and Guides. Brother has to lead them.”

“That’s really good.”

While I was glad about the development, I regretted not being able to see Ciel. I remembered what we had talked about through the night.

What he repeated most was, ‘I’m sorry for loving you’.

Ironically, it resonated with how I had once felt about him, allowing me to fully understand his feelings.

Maybe ‘I’m sorry for loving you’ meant ‘Forgive me for not letting you go, even though I know my presence by your side makes things hard for you.’