I Reincarnated As A Villainess, But Why Did I Become A Cat Butler Instead? - Chapter 219

Chapter 110.1

“I can’t, Dimitri. Even though I could return this box to grandmother someday, a blood oath is irrevocable.”

“….”

“I’m the one who is leaving.”

Rowaine’s words pierced painfully into Dimitri’s chest.

…The person who would leave.

Was she still thinking about that?

‘Why?’

He couldn’t understand. What was lacking, what was dissatisfying enough to make her think about leaving?

‘She was happy and smiled happily when she was with me. She had fun.’

What was that all about?

It felt like a heavy blow to the back of his head. He had thought for sure that their feelings were mutual. He believed she would love him in return, just as he had come to love her. Was it just his own wish? Did he become so blinded by love and make a foolish mistake?

“I was a fool.”

He muttered under his breath, sweeping his hand across his hardened face.

“Dimitri?”

Rowaine tilted her head and opened her round, rabbit-like eyes.

Even as he shuddered amidst a bitter realization, she looked so lovely like that, and that made Dimitri realize something for sure.

…He had been so lost in his own emotions that he thought to himself that there was love reflected in her gaze, touch and laughter.

Upon realizing this, he finally realized that the look in Rowaine’s eyes as she looked up at him was normal, and until now, he had been seeing her the way he wanted to see. She was just naturally bright and kind, but she hadn’t shown any special attitude towards him.

He had been mistaken because he had never experienced this pure kindness of others.

Dimitri clenched his fist in a surge of overwhelming emotions. Was it sadness? Betrayal? It was a hotter and more unpleasant feeling than that.

Perhaps anger.

No, this was a feeling of wanting to throw a tantrum… to ask her to love him. He wanted to hold her like a child, throw a fit, and force her. But could he really do that?

All he could do was open his mouth in a cold voice.

“You’ve been thinking about leaving ever since you came here.”

Embarrassment flashed across Rowaine’s face.

“Because that was our agreement in the first place.”

“….”

Dimitri remained silent. As much as he was reluctant to admit it, he had nothing to say in response.

“Agreement… yes, that’s right.”

He shook his head before walking past Rowaine and approaching Rosanne.

Even at that moment, countless thoughts swirled in his mind. When he thought about it objectively, he had given Rowaine everything he had, be it status, possessions, wealth, or even numerous cats. He had even supported her initiative to establish a shelter for shapeshifters.

He couldn’t recall a time when he hadn’t been considerate towards her, nor ever making her feel uncomfortable.

Despite the fact that it started as a contractual relationship, wasn’t it through various events that they shared emotions beyond that? Though they hadn’t spoken about it, he thought that if things continued like this, they would be together in the future, not because of a contract but with their hearts.

But at this moment, he felt like he had been thrown back to a time before he had met her again.

The depressive feelings stirred up his sense of inferiority that was sleeping deep inside him.

‘…Is it because I’m a shapeshifter?’

No matter how much he thought about it, there was only one reason—his only flaw that everyone in the world unanimously pointed out.

Yes, if not that, then what else could it be?

Even though she loved shapeshifters, that didn’t mean that it was still unpleasant to have a shapeshifter as her husband. It might be contradictory, but humans are contradictory by nature.

Dimitri gritted his teeth as his mood sank significantly.

His cold demeanor was enough to make Count Schdental swallow the wind.

He harbored a deep-seated sense of inferiority due to his birth. As she spent his childhood in Blois, even through a child’s eyes, he could keenly discern how lowly shapeshifters were perceived. Even after being abandoned by the Cayetana and living with his teacher and Esca, he realized through painful experience how much the whole world hated shapeshifters.

As he was labeled as a shapeshifter soldier, he had suffered hardships on the battlefield and was deprived of the bare minimum of human dignity.

So, he vowed time and time again.

Despite his birth, he was determined to make everyone bow before him one day—that was how he became so fixated on power. It was an obsession that began when he was abused by Cayetana and only intensified throughout his life within the depths of his inferiority complex.

Still, he had let go of that obsession in front of Rowaine. He even believed that he could willingly share his power with her. That was how sincere he was.

…But, in the end, did his origin hinder everything?

Thanks to Rowaine, the inferiority complex that had been subsiding resurfaced due to her.

Dimitri replied in a low voice as he saw the question in Rosanne’s eyes as to why he was coming alone, leaving Rowaine behind.