I Reincarnated As A Villainess, But Why Did I Become A Cat Butler Instead? - Chapter 162

Chapter 81.2

Dimitri asked, noticing my sudden change in mood.

“It doesn’t taste good?”

“No. I just remembered that Sasha is starving.”

“A meal is fine, Rowaine.”

“Why would she even do that?”

Dimitri took a sip of his wine and finally spoke seriously.

“Cats have an obsession with safety. We prioritize safety within the territory as our top priority.”

“I know, and that’s why I don’t understand it even more. If making a deal with the devil is so dangerous, why would you want to do something so risky?”

“We want to be more safe through the devil, because it’s a great source of power.”

“But if you make a contract with the devil and die, doesn’t that great power become useless?”

“Being obsessive about such things is painful because it means you are under a lot of pressure.”

“….”

“Do you understand what it feels like to be terrorized in your daily life by the idea that you’re not strong enough to defend yourself?”

As I shook my head, I suddenly remembered something from the past and stiffened.

I had a brother who was four years older than me. He was easily angered and prone to violence. On top of that, I had a patriarchal father who ruled over me like a king simply because I was his daughter. The four-year age difference in childhood felt like an insurmountable barrier.

I had to submit helplessly to my brother’s irrational and capricious commands, or else I would get punched. Even when I obeyed, I was often beaten.

In the eyes of my older brother, who was four years older, everything I did seemed immature and frustrating.

Even when he saw my brother beating me recklessly, my father would turn a blind eye, saying, ‘Young children can fight.’ As a result, my brother’s domineering behavior only worsened as his violence was repeatedly justified.”

Fear in everyday life…

…I knew it well.

When I burst into tears and screamed in protest, my mom would scold my brother, and my dad would yell at her for stifling their son’s energy. Guilt and anxiety would grow inside me as my parents fought, all because I couldn’t endure the situation. Still, the unbearable anguish and fear…

I asked Dimitri.

“Are you saying that Sasha is always afraid, even in this peaceful place, because she thinks she’s not strong enough?”

“All cats have a bit of that obsession,’ he explained. ‘But some, like Coco, rely on others and naturally enjoy peace. Then there are cats like Sasha, who feel particularly obsessive and run wild. She constantly wants to test her strength and show it off, which is why she ends up fighting with everyone.’”

“Ah…”

I didn’t know that. Not at all.

“Then… then, will she be okay if she makes a contract with the devil?”

Dimitri smiled meaningfully.

“The worse the fear, the more powerful demons they summon because demons covet someone’s negative emotions and want to burrow into them. Sasha will summon a demon as strong as the magnitude of her fear, and if she fights it and wins, she’ll be able to fill the fear in her heart with demons, and then she’ll be relieved, just like I did.”

He was beaming with pride, but I felt a little sorry for him.

As far as I knew, his demon was the most powerful demon in terms of combat power. How much fear did he feel until he made a contract with such a devil?

‘It must be the influence of Madam Elbas.’

He grew up under severe abuse.

Dimitri comforted me by suggesting dessert to me, who was speechless for a moment.

“Don’t worry too much, Rowaine. Since Sasha is still young, it’s probably better for her to make a contract with the devil.”

I was surprised to hear that. Isn’t it usually more dangerous when you’re young and inexperienced?

“Why?”

“Young children are less susceptible to demons’ subtle tricks.”

“Isn’t it easier for them because they’re naive?”

At my words, Dimitri laughed low in his throat.

“Do you know how great of a weapon a child can be to the devil when they have a limited vocabulary and don’t know what’s going on in the world? A child’s desires are limited and pure.”

As I didn’t quite understand what that was about, he patiently explained it to me.

“For demons who use sugar coating as their main weapon to corrupt the soul, there are surprisingly only a few ways to destroy an innocent person with clean desires.”

“That…!”

“Sasha hasn’t had a proper education yet, and she’s stupid enough that she won’t fall to the devil easily.”
[ T/N: IS THAT SUPPOSED TO BE A COMPLIMENT?! LOL (❁ ˃́ ∀ ˂̀ ) ]

It was true that I didn’t teach Sasha knowledge about human affairs, such as academics or etiquette, but…

‘Stupid… No, isn’t it too much to say that? Why does he even look so proud of himself as well?’

Dimitri showed unwavering faith that Sasha would survive and fulfill the contract without being attacked by the demon. Seeing that, I couldn’t help but stare at him blankly, not knowing whether to laugh or frown.

“Is that a compliment…?”

“Of course. Sasha is one of the strongest cats I’ve ever seen.”

He continued.

“Cat shapeshifters are independent when they’re at Sasha’s age. A cat that can hunt and live on its own deserves to be treated like an adult. Give Sasha her freedom.”

“An adult… she’s still so small and delicate.”

When I hesitated, unconvinced, Dimitri said as if he had a good idea.

“It would be better to see it yourself than to hear it a hundred times.”

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