This BL Novel Is Ruined Now - Chapter 117

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Chapter 117

Translator: Yonnee

RP: Haebaragi_syk

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“Are you smiling right now?”

“…No.”

He tried to deny his obvious smile, but what did he mean, ‘no’? The corners of his lips were quivering, impatient to tug up and draw a curve.

“Are you seriously smiling? Ethan, don’t you know how serious your action just now is?”

“…I know.”

A sullen response came back.

Even so, it absolutely didn’t look like he was reflecting on himself. Rather, he looked happy about receiving a Christmas gift in the middle of August.

“I’m sorry I smiled when you’re angry. To be honest, I’m just happy that you’re worried about me, Reina.”

“……”

This punk, really.

“Is that something to say at a time like this?”

The moment she placed a hand over her own forehead as though she was feeling a rising fever, Ethan burst into a small laugh.

“It’s the opposite of when we were at the Thurn Village.”

One after another, he kept saying uncharacteristic lines like, ‘Just like I was at that time, you’re the one who’s worried about me this time, Reina. I’m glad.’

But unfortunately, rather than making her think it was adorable to hear such a thing, it just made her blood pressure rise.

“How is that the same as this?!”

As her blood pressure soared, she yelled as though she finally exploded.

“At that time, I acted like that because I was fully certain of the disease! But you, Ethan! You just stabbed yourself without any countermeasures!”

As a matter of fact, it was as Ethan said. Reina’s actions in the Thurn Village and Ethan’s actions now were actually similar.

That’s why it was a bit unwarranted for her to get angry like this, but…

‘This guy. He sometimes acts like he’s missing a screw or something.’

She didn’t know that before the incident with Lehman. But after that, she began to notice a few peculiarities with Ethan as he frequented the Chantra residence.

Ethan Liam had a screw loose somewhere.

In other words, he might know that what he’s doing was wrong, but despite it all, he’d fully do it anyway while ‘not knowing’ that what he’s doing was wrong.

“E-Ethan! I know what Paul did wasn’t right, but still! You can’t shoot fire directly at someone’s face!”

“It’s alright. He has enough magical capabilities to defend himself anyway.”

It’s as if he was saying, ‘That guy’s got a shield to defend himself anyway, so it’s fine even if I stab him.’ It’s the same reasoning.

‘Is that why Grandmother and the elder council were opposing me getting together with him so much…’

In any case, there were many reasons that she must address this situation exactly and precisely.

“I’m sorry, Reina. I won’t surprise you again.”

He admitted his guilt without hesitation.

But really. She wasn’t sure.

‘Is that the face of a person who’s reflecting on himself?’

The smile on his face was making his cheekbones look as if they were about to soar to the heavens. It didn’t match the gravity of the situation at all.

“Ethan. I’m serious here.”

And as she spoke this time, the heavy tone she had was different from when she was angry just a moment ago. Ethan’s smile was promptly erased.

“Even if this isn’t a plague-stricken area, it’s not right for you to have done that. Whatever the reason, you shouldn’t harm yourself.”

“Reina, I’m fine. It doesn’t hurt at all—a wound like this is nothing to me.”

This guy… Really, what’s wrong with him? She wasn’t talking about whether it hurt him a lot or not.

“Haa…”

In the end, Reina thought that this couldn’t go on. She reached for the cufflink that Ethan had stabbed himself with and started to disinfect it.

“Reina?”

His perplexed expression could be seen in her periphery, but she continued whatever she was doing as though she didn’t care about his reaction.

“What are you doing right no— REINA!!”

The moment Reina was about to stab herself in the forearm with the cufflink, a large hand hurriedly grabbed her wrist.

“What are you doing?!”

“Let go, Ethan.”

“Absolutely not. If you’re going to stab yourself like this, I definitely can’t let go.”

At his answer, Reina turned and gave him a hard look.

“Do you understand now?”

“Understand what…”

But as he tried to give a rebuttal, he trailed off. His expression hardened like stone.

Looking at Ethan as he reacted like this, Reina spoke clearly.

“You might be fine about harming yourself for the sake of someone else, but it won’t be the case for the other person.”

“……”

“Ethan, tell me. If you make a sacrifice that the other person didn’t ask for, and all the while, you’re asking that person to accept it… You know that it’s considered a type of abuse, right?”

A sacrifice obscured by false words— a situation wherein a person would be forced to accept it all due to guilt. There was nothing more terrible than that.

“So, don’t do this again. Don’t hurt yourself and say that it’s for my sake.”

“…I’m sorry, Reina. I didn’t think it through.”

His eyelids closed halfway as he looked down on the ground. It was quite different from the apology he gave earlier while he only said, ‘I get it’.

Seeing him like this, Reina felt that it was enough of a reaction. She alleviated her heavy expression to lift the atmosphere.

“I’m sorry, too. That I explained my side in an extreme manner.”

“No, Reina. I’m even more sorry.”

“That’s right. You have to be more remorseful about that, Ethan.”

As she responded playfully, Ethan’s expression brightened.

She then went on to disinfect his wound. After doing so, she removed the cotton cloth and spoke again.

“This much disinfection is enough. I’ll use my healing power now.”

Gathering Chetrasiu’s power in her palm, a fresh, green light glimmered between Ethan’s arm and Reina’s hand.

Fortunately, the wound wasn’t deep, and so his skin regenerated quickly.