The Gap Between You and Me - Chapter 166

Herietta sighed slowly. A complex and subtle expression with various emotions intersected. She turned her body to face him.

“Do you…… love me?”

“!”

“Tell me, Edwin. Are you really in love with me?”

“How, how can you ask me such a question?”

Edwin asked, his breath became short. He must have been shocked by Herietta’s words, it showed by his blue eyes shaking violently.

“When I lost everything, when I got it back, when I stood at the crossroads of life and death, I only wanted you. All I wanted was to be with you. I’d rather die than live in a world without you, so I sincerely think…….”

Edwin groaned softly. The emotions that had been suppressed for so long came to the surface and overwhelmed him. Unconcealable pain welled up in his eyes as he remembered the days when he believed he had lost her.

“Miss Herietta knows best how I feel toward you. So how, how could you ask me such a question…….”

“But Edwin, it has been almost a year since we came here together. It’s been almost a year since we’ve acted as a good couple in front of other people.”

Bewildered by Edwin’s distressed appearance, Herietta hurriedly said,

“You have always been kind to me and cared for me beyond measure. It’s not that I don’t know that.”

“Then what is truly the matter?”

“That, Edwin. That is the problem.”

Herietta’s voice raised a little in her frustration.

“On the surface, we are a perfect couple. But there is an invisible line between us. And you’ve never once tried to cross that line.”

“Line?”

“I am already twenty-one. I am not that young to know nothing. I am also not a plant in a greenhouse that must be protected.”

Her words continued in difficulty.

“For a grown man and woman to be together all day and nothing happens, there must be a good reason for it.”

“…….”

“You haven’t had the slightest desire to do that in a year, I can roughly guess what that means.”

“…… Then.”

Edwin slowly put the pieces together.

“What you’re feeling right now …… you mean a desire for physical intimacy?”

“I am not blaming you. What can I do? I can’t force you to feel that way.”

When Edwin directly mentioned it, Herietta blushed. Her other hand that was free from his grasp, crumpled her skirt.

“So be honest with me now, Edwin. If the reason you stay by my side is not because of love as a woman, but rather compassion, responsibility, or guilt.”

Herietta was unable to finish her words.

Edwin had stood up first and scooped her up with his mighty strength. Her body floated upward like a paper doll, and before long, she was in his arms. WIthout giving her a moment to ask what he was doing, his lips touched hers.

“Huhp…… !”

Surprised by Edwin’s sudden kiss, Herietta floundered in his arms. Edwin had no intention of letting her go.

When he noticed that she was trying to push him away, he hugged her waist tighter and pressed her closer to him. At this moment, he couldn’t allow her to get away from him even a little bit.

“…….”

Herietta’s hand, which had tried to push Edwin away, gradually lost its strength. Her body was hot.

The hot breaths of the two intertwined with the unfamiliar feeling of their lips meeting. A strange heat that could not be easily explained in words spread throughout her body. Herietta shuddered, trapped in the heat.

She wondered if she would be completely swallowed up by him like this. Every time she flinched and faltered, he immediately came for her. Edwin had always been gentle and kind to her, but there was nothing of it now. Each and every action of his toward her was breathtakingly persistent and passionate.

Time passed. Edwin, who had laid bare his desire for Herietta for quite some time, finally let her go.

“To say I don’t feel that way towards Miss Herietta. Everyone will be laughing.”

Edwin smiled cooly as he looked down at Herietta, who was gasping for breath.

“I am not as pure as you think. Did you really believe that I would really have no desire in front of the woman I love?”

“Ed, Edwin…… ?”

“It’s just that Miss Herietta doesn’t know. What was I thinking of whenever I see Miss Herietta? How to hold you and make you mine…… You really don’t know anything.”

Edwin slowly confessed his feelings as his long fingers caressed her cheek.

“If you realize how dark and lustful I am inside, you would be horrified. You might hate me and even despise me.”

The dirty and clingy desire that was too excessive. And a breathtaking possessiveness towards the woman who likes him without knowing anything about him.

“I was scared.”

I was scared you’ll be disappointed in me.

“So I hesitated.”

That you’ll be scared of me and will try to run away from me.

“I didn’t want to lose you after rushing at you due to my greed. No, I don’t want to lose you again in any way. I know how terrifying it is to live without you. I know that fact engraved to my bones.”

“…….”

“I know it will sound like an excuse. But believe me on this. The reason I’ve restrained myself from doing it in the meantime isn’t because you’re not attractive.”

Edwin’s neck that was explaining, swung down. Herietta lifted herself and put her arms around his neck to pull him down to her.

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