The Eldest Daughter Walks Down The Flower Path - Chapter 138
Chapter 138
Translator: Yonnee
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“Then ask me anything, Captain.”
After losing a round of chess, this was what Radis said. Actually, there were so many things he wanted to ask her.
Why did you join the subjugation squad under your younger brother’s name?
How long do you intend to do this dangerous thing?
Do you have someone in your heart?
…But how could he say any of that.
He was a child born out of wedlock.
His father and brothers were the ones who desperately wanted him to disappear from the world.
He had nowhere to go except to stay as a subjugation squad member.
Robert made up his mind.
‘I’ll get a seal. After that, I will propose to her.’
He thought that he’d be able to stand more confidently in front of Radis if he were to receive a mage knight’s seal.
When he revealed he was about to be awarded one, Radis rejoiced whole-heartedly, as though the honor he had received was her own.
“Captain, don’t worry about anything here!”
Robert stroke Radis’s head and replied,
“I trust you, Dee. You’re the only person I can count on. I’ll leave the squad in your hands. And…”
In the near future, it would be a certain fact that his honor would be hers entirely.
Robert felt his heart pounding heavily at the thought of receiving his seal and then kneeling in front of her.
As the squad celebrated around them, he whispered into her ear.
“There’s something I want to tell you.”
Radis answered valiantly.
“Please go ahead, Captain.”
Her words made Robert’s heart pound so heavily that it threatened to leave its cage.
“No… After I return.”
After he was qualified enough to stand before her.
“I’ll tell you when I come back.”
He would confess to her.
Radis nodded and smiled.
…That was the last time he ever saw her.
* * *
After hearing about the tragedy that transpired at Monsterwood, David immediately checked the list of survivors, then headed towards the Tilrod residence.
“C-Captain…!”
It was David, appearing before Robert while looking greatly flustered.
“Um, I survived. What a relief, isn’t it?”
Robert was not a fool.
He had long since found out what House Tilrod’s secret was. When David said this to his face, he nearly broke the other man’s neck on the spot.
If David didn’t look so much like her, he really would have done so.
Robert left a deep hand mark on David’s neck and snarled.
“Where is the real one?”
Thinking that his neck would really get snapped at this point, David immediately told the truth.
But it was all for naught.
She lay there at the charnel house, already cold.
Now that she was without her armor and helmet, all the traces of miasma that she had been desperately hiding remained intact on her corpse.
The moment she found her, he was overcome with a crushing urge to find each and ever member of the Tilrod family—to tear them apart alive and kill them.
But he could not do that.
They were the family members who she sacrificed her life for until she came to this point.
He had no choice but to leave the Tilrod residence without doing anything at all.
* * *
After losing everything, the only thing that filled the void in his heart was regret.
Why did he not know sooner?
Perhaps he knew it already but convinced himself otherwise?
Why did he leave her behind?
Even while he was deep in slumber, those questions incessantly appeared in his mind dozens of times each night.
No matter how much he tried to hit his head on a boulder, his resentment towards himself did not disappear.
He was like a man standing in the rain without an umbrella, day by day, drenched entirely in regret.
What’s surprising was that he was not alone in this struggle to breathe amidst this bog of despair.
The world that had lost her suffered just as much as he did as it went down the path of destruction.
Rather, he thought it was fortunate.
He wouldn’t have been able to endure it if, without her, the sky was still blue, if the air was still fresh, if the seasons still changed.
But being in the dark made no difference to the pain and regret that he felt.
‘I shouldn’t have left.’
If he could turn back time, he swore never to leave her again.
‘Why did you hide it?’
If he had known about the miasma that had been plaguing her, he could have helped her.
If he had known, she would not have died whilst feeling such great pain.
But these regrets were much too late, even if he were to reflect on the fact thousands upon thousands of times.
‘There’s nothing left for me now.’
He was acutely aware of his own foolishness.
He was a hopeless fool who realized how precious she was only after losing her.
So, when death came to him, he welcomed it with open arms.
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