It's Not Night - Chapter 75
She turned her head to see Dustin popping up from the window, walking towards her now.
Andra was no longer surprised whenever Dustin suddenly appeared. It became natural for him to visit Andra’s dormitory every night. Andra had half-given up about Dustin visiting her room. It’s obvious that he wouldn’t listen even if she told him not to come.
“Good for you.”
“What.”
“Because you’re ignorant.”
With a rough answer, Andra cleared her desk and brought her thesis in front of her. As she turned the crumpled front page, there was a hand grabbing her wrist. The large, blood-veined hands were clunky with calluses everywhere. Andra looked at the man’s hand, which was twice as big as hers, and then raised her head.
Dustin frowned with a complicated look.
“What’s the problem this time?”
“There’s no problem. Rather, let me go.”
Andra tried to take back her caught wrist.
“Then why are you fighting again all of a sudden?”
“I said let me go.”
“I can’t let you go until you tell me. What’s wrong?”
Dustin asked as he grabbed Andra’s shoulder with the other hand, then he turned her towards him. For that reason, Andra faced Dustin, so she was able to take a closer look at his face.
Dustin’s pale green eyes were tense. He also seemed anxious.
“It’s nothing.”
“You’re getting annoyed about that.”
Andra frowned at Dustin’s questioning. At the same time, she sighed. Haa, Dustin’s eyebrows twitched as Andra sighed and lowered her gaze for a moment. Suddenly Andra raised her head again and faced Dustin.
“Dustin Airak, do you know that you’re being so weird right now?”
“…What?”
“Regardless of whether I’m annoyed or not, why are you so overreacting?”
Andra couldn’t understand Dustin’s reaction to her earlier. If it was him from before, he would look at her with eyes like ‘You’re being disgusting again’,but now he’s tenaciously trying to understand her feelings? Since when did he care so much?
Andra really couldn’t understand Dustin’s behavior these days.
‘From that day on?’
The day she initiated the sex with Dustin when he sneaked into her room first. From then on, Dustin’s behavior toward her became a little strange. He seemed to be keeping a watchful gaze on Andra.
Of course, she was not used to it and tried to ignore it. But every time Dustin looked at her that openly, Andra found it harder and harder to pretend she couldn’t see his expressions.
“It’s like that now. It’s something you used to ignore, but you’re reacting like this.”
Andra did nothing to Dustin. She only spoke a single word without a care just like before. If it had been Dustin in the past, their exchange would have been like this—
‘Good for you. How ignorant.’
‘What kind of nonsense?’
But now Dustin didn’t say such things. Rather, he’d just approach Andra, grab her wrist, and persistently ask, ‘What’s the matter?’ As if he truly wished to know what happened to her. As if he was worried and as if her troubles were affecting him.
So, of course, Andra could only question it.
What’s wrong with him?
“Don’t you think it’s really strange when you think about it?”
“…Is it strange?”
“Yes. You’re being weird.”
Andra spoke pointedly at him again. Dustin narrowed his brow for a long time and didn’t say anything. Thanks to that, Andra lifted her frown and waved the wrist that was caught by him.
“Anyway, let go of me. It’s really annoying to grab people’s wrists.”
But Dustin didn’t let Andra’s wrist go. Instead, he lifted her hand, wrapped an arm around Andra’s waist, and pulled her towards him.
Swept in by him in an instant, Andra looked up from Dustin’s arms with a bewildered face. Why was he doing this all of a sudden? Andra’s face distorted little by little at Dustin’s behavior, which was far from what she expected.
“What are you doing?”
“Is this strange too?”
“What?”
“Is it strange? What I’m doing to you.”
“If it’s not strange, then what else…”
Andra’s words did not continue. Dustin suddenly lowered his head and covered Andra’s lips with his. His hot, soft tongue licked her lips, and slipped through the gap. Andra’s eyes widened as Dustin’s tongue swept through her teeth and even tangled with her tongue.
It was the first time he had ever kissed her like this, except whenever they were in the middle of having s*x. What was this about? Andra was flustered as she was kissing Dustin.
Soon after, she began to struggle. Suffocating after a while, with all her strength, she struck Dustin’s forearm with one free hand, and their lips separated.
“Mmph, hah!”
Andra took a quick breath. Her chest fluctuated greatly as she breathed roughly. Dustin looked at Andra silently, and then spoke in a low, subdued voice.
“How about this.”
“What’s wrong with you… Seriously?”
Andra got furious at Dustin’s question. She wiped her lips, which were glistening with saliva, with the back of her hand. She rubbed it so hard that her thin lips began to look swollen. Andra looked at Dustin displeasedly. Thinking back, she really couldn’t understand what he was doing.
“Why is it strange? It’s not the first time.”
Dustin looked down at Andra and asked again, as she exhaled her breath. She was astonished by the shameless look on his face—no sign of regret at all. Andra held back her desire to slap Dustin on the cheek right away.
She thought he had been quiet, but Dustin took matters in his own hand and got in the way. She couldn’t help but get angry because he kept ignoring people like this and kept behaving however he wanted.
Andra’s breathing calmed down a bit, and she turned to Dustin with a razor-sharp smirk.
“I really don’t know why you’re doing this to me, but if you want to do it, just say that you do. Then I will take off my clothes on my own.”
Can I take it off now? When Andra twisted away and tried to strip, Dustin held her tighter. Now, there was practically no distance between their faces, when a while ago there was at least still some. He stared at Andra with a look of disbelief.
“…Are you serious?”
“Then do you think it’s a lie? Why would I lie to you?”
“You don’t have to say that…”
In an instant, the atmosphere became harsh. Dustin made an absurd face to Andra’s face. He bowed his head and brought Andra and his face closer together. Her blue eyes shone with no sign of any lies. Even in the midst of this, how was it that her eyes shone so bright that they resembled the clear blue sky. The beauty of her eyes made him even more angry.
Whether or not she knew Dustin’s innermost thoughts, Andra parted her lips as if she could not fully understand it.
“In the end, between you and I, isn’t there only one thing that we want from each other?”
“Shut up.”
Immediately, Dustin muttered a low voice. He knew what word would come next. If it was Andra, she would be straightforward about it. So, he wished even more that she wouldn’t say it.
However Andra scoffed, as though to trample over Dustin’s wish.
“Body. S*x.”
Andra even snorted as if asking if he thought she didn’t know.
“No? That’s what you said before.”
“…I told you to shut up ”
“And if I did? What are you going to do, refute it as if it’s not true?”
Andra was right. Keeping her mouth shut didn’t mean that it would become a lie. As Andra said, that’s how the relationship between them started. It could not be denied.
Dustin didn’t say anything for a while. It’s as if his throat was blocked.
“Dustin Airak, don’t cross the line.”
“…….”
“Don’t act like you’re doing things for my sake. It’s disgusting.”
“…….”
“I’m telling you not to act like you want more from me.”
Andra noticed that Dustin’s grasp was slowly loosening. He seemed shocked by her remarks. Although she couldn’t understand why he was shocked, from her point of view.
But Andra knew that Dustin couldn’t refute any of this. Perhaps he knew this as well. That he has no reason or right to act like this in front of her.
With a forceful tone, Andra drove the final nail in the coffin.
“Do you not understand? There’s nothing between us.”
Once the magic spell binding them together would become undone, this intimate relationship would end. And when that would happen, she’d never have anything to do with Dustin Airak any longer. Andra Avellin would just be Andra Avellin, and likewise, Dustin Airak would just be Dustin Airak. The two would go their separate ways and live their own lives.
“I heard you like to keep things casual”
Dustin had a history of meeting this girl and that, but he was famous for never having any official girlfriends. All the women he met were only flings and one night stands. So Andra decided to let Dustin define this relationship in the same way.
“Think of it like we’re just having fun for a while. That’s how I think so, too.”
“…….”
“We just need to fill up each other’s light until the spell is broken. That’s all our relationship is.”
At the last word, the grip on her wrist was completely loose. Andra pulled herself out of his arms and pushed him away from her. Despite putting in just a little effort, he was so easily pushed away.
“Dustin Airak. I think you have understood enough.”
So don’t look at me that way. Don’t act that way towards me. Andra took a few steps away from Dustin, emphasizing each word.
She didn’t want to understand why Dustin was behaving like this towards her. No— She didn’t even want to try and understand.
Just like this…
She wanted to turn a blind eye and ignore it.
It’s absolutely ridiculous that Dustin Airak likes Andra Avlelin. It’s impossible
So, Andra didn’t want to know about Dustin’s feelings. Forever.
“For today, just leave.”
Andra turned her back on Dustin.